Through the realm of my God mind, my imagination, I had the experience that White Buffalo Calf Woman had joined me, both in the regression segment of my session and then during the healing stage with the SC. I was in the middle of a purification of my heart releasing old judgement patterns against my Mother, which was partly causing my debilitating migraines.
White Calf Buffalo
During my past life regression, I had the experience of being a beautiful Native American women who was grieving for her lost Mother who had died and left me with all of her 6 children to look after. I was in a ceremony of “Walk On”, one of the circles of the 7 Sacred Rites. Although I had not known specifically of these Rites prior to this past life regression, I felt attachment to the concept of this being, White Buffalo Calf Women. I experienced her power when she pointed me to my heart compass.
The picture of me above, with the drum and the tree was taken two years before this session. I was already connecting to the energies of this being to help me find a vision of purpose and how to best serve people. I did not know conceptually at the time, that this is one of the Sacred Rites that White Buffalo Calf Woman teaches. During the session she came through to tell me that I was connecting to “Crying for Vision” as one of the 7 Rites, as I had done so in past life experiences. I had some Dragons to slay in my shadow in that tree, but first I needed to find my compass.
So back to this life time, my Mother had me taking care of my siblings from my very early years. I had to learn to be hyper responsible and hyper regimented, being raised by an army kid. I never saw my own child hood. I had to disappear, be good, be pleasing and conform. The pressure mounted as I aged, and at 14 years of age, I began to change and become rebellious to learn to push boundaries so that I could grow and learn. My Mother was a beautiful creature, was always fair and loving, however, I was deeply angry with her for not having her own presence and voice in her marriage.
Crying for Vision
My Heart is a compass. The path of love is true abundance.
I learned in my session that my Mother really loved me with such a deep and beautiful love. Even though that connection was not made in real time, the session in the experience gifted me with a release of all of that. I was able to feel her truth and her heart and her deep love for me. The beautiful admiration that she had for me all along just never got translated outwardly when I was a child, but it unfolded for me in this session with the help of The Sacred Prophetess and my very Beautiful Lion Hearted Mother Maggie. It’s no surprise that Maggie’s birthday is on 8-8, the Lion’s Gate Portal.
The Sacred Prophetess and my mother Maggie helped me learn that my Mother agreed to play her role in my life the way she did so I could learn all that I was capable of. This was very helpful to me later on in life when I was a young Mother without community and had to look after two little children. I was in a deep state of mental suffering, loss and separation from self and others. In my childhood I had greatly developed skill sets that allowed a sense of order and function, (at least on the outside), and the skills to manage much of the chaos.
As a seeker of growth and learning, I am amazed how the universe throws us just what we need, even when we don’t think we need it. Just when you think you have the answers, life changes the question.
The purpose of the learning lesson was to lay down the judgement and pressure I put on myself and to pick up forgiveness to move myself then into understanding.
