Peru was a trip in learning about physical pain. I discovered that it is actually true when Joe Dispenza talks about” taking your attention off the body and becoming a nobody,will allow you to create from the field.” Something deep inside me new this trip was going to be uncomfortable on many levels. My acupuncturist even commented that the heat and humidity of that environment would probably really put me out of balance with my body and that I really did not need to be dealing with that along everything else I was trying to manage through which was by that time an already 10 year journey of suffering physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually in a way that was breaking me down into barely functioning. All my symptoms were exactly as though I had MS.I was already selling off business’s that I had created to family members and getting help from family to take over and run the business’s. I was not sure what I was preparing for but I sure was pinched off from life by then.
All I knew was that I had to go and it was crazy to be entertaining this idea, I simply put the blinders on and got myself on that plane. I was already financially stripped down to nothing and did not know how I was going to pay the amount on my credit card bill for this trip, which by the way happened to be the exact amount of credit left available. I would like to add here that just before the plane reved up its engines I had a highly unimagined source of money come through via a telephone call. The source was something I had entertained in thought months prior and I seem to recall a prayer of intention around that as I was seeking support from the universe. The drama began to unfold on the way to Peru through multiple flights. Basciaclly I was in such pain from the cabin pressure and a neck misalignment from falling asleep upright and snapping my head back and forth to wake myself up from falling forward. I arrived in Peru in the greatest pain I have ever remembered being in and had left my cell phone on the plane. I eventually got my phone back and proceeded to take a very long ,hot and bumpy ride to my destination. I was planning to stay 1 month in isolation to heal myself at a special healing retreat. I was going to live with the locals for 1 month and come back healed.
Here is what happened. My pain only got worse and nobody seemed to be helping me, in fact they were walking by me just like I was a dog laying on the ground and I could not believe it. In spite my efforts to communicate I needed help and to remind them of who I was and all the emails communicated previous to me coming and what I was in need of or thought I might receive through all my endless hours of research etc was simply what I felt like was being ignored. I had constant experiences over and over again of losing consciousness because of the pain and then I simply began to surrender my fight with the pain and something different would happen I would peacefully drift off to sleep and get space from the pain in that way.
This is when I could feel Mother Mary with me. I knew this energy feeling with me because of my Mother Mary experience in Sedona a few years prior. When my body got very very cold after a few days and I felt I was burning up inside and my stomach so distended like I was literally having a baby the family finally took serious notice and began having discussions about me and what to do. The first thing they said was that I needed to stay two months but I had only sent money for 6 days. Apparently I had made the money conversion last min in error. Well that was no error because my higher power definitely did not intend for me to stay a moment longer then was required as I had discovered later. Then they told me I had two Souls in my body and although it was rare, it was possible, and that they have encountered this before.
They basically put me in a cab and got in with me and we went to this hut along side the road where a man was peeing along side of his hut. He saw us coming and went inside and popped open a hatch and held it up with a stick. He was saying he was open for business. They brought me into this dark and smelly hut and laid me down on a very dirty and smelly mattress. I really did not care at all I was just grateful to have the attention I needed and I somehow trusted I was going to be ok. I really could not think straight for myself anyway and so I was left no choice but to trust. This man put his fingers into my intestines and held it there for what seemed like forever then on my stomach did the same thing into the back of my neck.
When it was over they put me back in the cab and sent me back to the retreat by myself and I was instantly freed from my pain and in fact I could feel my entire being come back on line and the journey back alone was just perfect for me to integrate and process the experience .I stayed another two days and those final days were filled with very high vibrational experiences ,of me being in a new body and having thought processes with a new mind. My hormones had been reset to balance, I could tell this is what I was experiencing and it was literally connecting me to my Soul. My journey home was the complete opposite as the way there and the synapses of my brain had rewired itself to more and new path ways.
I truly had become a phoenix rising out of my own ashes. The experience of something strange expressing itself through me in the middle of a hot afternoon while all the others had gone on an excursion. I had found myself standing in the middle of a hut where ceremony is performed, in the standing split yoga pose in perfect stillness without wavering. I had not been able to do this for years. As I held my ankle I began to sing. I could not believe how loud and strong my voice had become, as sounds of an operatic nature came from my body, I heard and listened to myself. I knew the sound from deep within; I AM HERE. Resonance at the depth is truly miraculous.
